I Guess It's All Starting

We came to our friends Tracy and Larry's in Rye yesterday and it's warm and green and blissful. They are so generous, offering us to stay here whenever. I've been floating around in the pool with Ari, after cuddling with him all night long. And then the hospital called. I have to maybe have a bronchoscopy tomorrow. To make sure that the fungal pneumonia I had is all all gone. It's hospitals and tests and everything starting. I can't cry in front of Ari, but if I could, it would be a flood. Just feeling it today, that's all. Love surrounds me. I know that. I'm blessed in so many ways.